Funk

Tomorrow is the largest annual event for one of our local clients. Consequently, my wife has been working nonstop for quite some time, preparing for it and doing much of the work volunteers used to do. The lack of volunteers follows the slide of the organization from 750+ members a few years ago to 400 now. So, we can't charge more because they don't have it. More work, less money. That is our business model of late. It is getting critical. My wife and I finally had a brief, if unsatisfactory, discussion about what we're going to do. We can't keep this up...eventually, we'll just work ourselves to death and be broke. We didn't really get into specifics; we just agreed we need to.

I need to be enthusiastic about what I do; otherwise, it becomes deadly dull and I can't function. I'm not enthusiastic. I need to do something different. At least we're making progress. We're beginning to think about having serious discussions of what the future holds.

I forgot to buy a lotto ticket tonight. I've forgotten to buy lotto tickets for many, many, many months. I guess our financial futures won't be guaranteed by winning the lottery tonight.

OK, time to get out of the funk. I'll watch news about the Mideast and the latest Washington policies and the excelerating erosion of civil rights and the growing power of an expanding number of militarists in the power elite of the Bush administration. That'll brighten things up for me.