There are times when I feel closer to knowing myself at my core than other times...tonight is one of them. I don't know why, I just have a sense. And it's always a time in which I do NOT feel like I'm a born association executive...it's more likely that I feel I was born to write. Too bad I'm not better at it.
Tonight, I know that I am very different from most people with whom I come in contact. That's not good or bad, just a fact. I am different. So, I have very few friends. I think I could have friends, but I would need to be in the right environment. Those people could be carpenters or fishermen or professors or police officers or politicians. But they're not association executives and they're not people who would fit easily into a Republican fundraiser. Similarly, they would not fit easily into a deep-left conversation. I have 'issues' with both camps, issues with which I am afraid I would be unable to bend to reach compromise.
The people I might fit with best are people who are absolutely certain of their beliefs, but are willing to assume those beliefs are wrong for the sake of conversation and argument. And those people are apt to be harsh and sharp and certain of their positions on any given argument, yet able to change positions in a heartbeat when the right argument strikes the right nerve.
Sometimes, I want to be close to people and have deep conversations and find the place where we 'touch' one another's souls. Other times...most of the time...I am satisfied to be distant and know that I will never be a true friend...because I couldn't tolerate the requirements for consistency and steadfastness and unwaivering support. But that's what I'm after. So, it's rather tough to live in this world of fierce insistence and equally fierce resistance.
Tonight, I read my sister-in-law's forwarded joke that I found wildly hilarious and painfully sad. I'll include the entire thing here...tell me what you think:
20 Ways to Maintain A Healthy Level Of Insanity.
- At Lunch Time, Sit In Your Parked Car With Sunglasses on and point a Hair Dryer At Passing Cars. See If They Slow Down.
- Page Yourself Over The Intercom. Don't Disguise Your Voice.
- Every Time Some one Asks You To Do Something, Ask If They Want Fries with that.
- Put Your Garbage Can On Your Desk And Label It "In."
- Put Decaf In The Coffee Maker For 3 Weeks Once Everyone has Gotten Over Their Caffeine Addictions, Switch to Espresso.
- In The Memo Field Of All Your Cheques, Write "For Smuggling Diamonds"
- Finish All Your sentences with "In Accordance With The Prophecy."
- Don't use any punctuation
- As Often As Possible, Skip Rather Than Walk.
- Order a Diet Water whenever you go out to eat, with a serious face.
- Specify That Your Drive-through Order Is "To Go."
- Sing Along At The Opera
- Go To A Poetry Recital And Ask Why The Poems Don't Rhyme
- Put Mosquito Netting Around Your Work Area And Play tropical Sounds All Day.
- Five Days In Advance, Tell Your Friends You Can't Attend Their Party Because You're Not In The Mood.
- Have Your Co-workers Address You By Your Wrestling Name, Rock Bottom.
- When The Money Comes Out The ATM, Scream "I Won!, I Won!"
- When Leaving The Zoo, Start Running Towards The Parking lot, Yelling "Run For Your Lives, They're Loose!!"
- Tell Your Children Over Dinner. "Due To The Economy, We Are Going To Have To Let One Of You Go."
- And The Final Way To Keep A Healthy Level Of Insanity...... Send This E-mail To Someone To Make Them Smile.
I'm in a wierd mood tonight...partly good, partly uncomfortable. Tomorrow, it will be something I can understand.
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