Transmogrification

A wonderful day like yesterday can be turned into a quagmire of depression when followed by a day like today. I suppose I let it happen, but I certainly do not intend it. I appreciate clients...but I sometimes loathe dealing with them and their psychotic quirks...and their paranoia and their deep fear of competitors.

I will not continue to sully this post with more bitching and moaning...I will try to keep it to myself.


I suspect I could have walked to the bridge over the creek near my office and allowed my stress to wash away as I watched the fish and turtles and water birds. But I didn't. I stayed in my office, fuming and stewing, allowing yesterday's good mood to be swept away in the flood of annoyance. You may have noticed...I have not yet let the bitterness and bitching to flow away. I will keep trying.

When I arrived at my office at about 7:20 this morning, I was ready to let anything troubling slip away...but my newest staff member did not show up until 8:15. (I know, the bitterness and annoyance is not flowing away...dammit!)

I had every intention to rip through the "required" tasks this morning so I could devote more time and energy to thinking about possibilities...things to which I might devote my attention...things that could impact my life in a positive way. Nope. Didn't happen.

So, here I am, it's 7:54 pm and I'm still pissed off, feeling angry and unfulfilled, and generally behaving like the sort of pig I loathe in others. Snarl! Bark!

I will give myself a respite from walking tonight...have a margarita and do my damnedest to get my attitude back in check. If I had friends like me, I would recommend euthanasia! Enough! Back to the real world. Now, I'm thinking of the garment workers in Jordan, a story about whom I heard this morning on NPR. I have nothing to complain about! Get over it, John! Count your lucky stars and ignore your crybaby tendencies.

That's better. I'm trying to let myself laugh at me now. Read today's and yesterday's posts on Perils of Caffeine in the Evening. Not all laughs, but it helps. And don't forget to read the blog of ...A Curmudgeonly Crab, someone with whom I have fallen in love...I really like her posts, and tonight is no exception...she is a rabid liberal! Note: This love affair has not had an impact on my relationship with my wife...she knows I love her! But read Crabbi's links and you'll see!